Wednesday, June 15, 2005

I neva feel so upset b4 in my entire life. Tis is worse than my breakup wif ch e last time. Heartbreak heals wif time, but tis is a setback for mi. I neva lye to admit i'm stressed, but tis time i really am. I dun know y ntu can give mi a chance to go for interview under discretionary section but i actually didn't get past it. Am i not e one dat dey are looking for to fill up e 10% of their corhort? Why?? I had good sports background+ leadership skills. I thought my interview went fairly well, cos i said some things which hopefully impressed e interviewers. When some of my frens msged mi dat they received e rejection letter, i thought i wouldn't. Cos i applied under "discretionary", hence my application is handled differently. But most of all, i was quite confident dat my interview went well.

After being rejected by e 3 unis, i appealed. I was so shocked when e head of division of psychology emailed mi n asked mi down for an interview. I had neva heard anyone who went thru this. I knew i am very very lucky to haf this 2nd chance, but at e same time, i am very stressed. Cos NTU raised my hopes again n i wun b able to take it if i didn't make it again.

E interview didn't go well. E interviewer-head of division of psychology, threw mi so many thinking qns dat i really haf no clue how to go abt answering. Esp social issues... He told mi dat there were only 4 interviewees today n dat we were special/ haf a case. I gathered dat e other 3 muz haf beta attributes den mi. I knoe dat i dun haf any more chance to study in ntu psychology. Why do students wif beta grades not haf to go thru e questioning n answering regarding psychology juz bcos of their grades?

@ 11:45 pm